My Great Aunt Norah's wartime diaries, 1938-1948
This blog post is a departure from my usual in that it is concerned with the process of writing rather than with Norah’s story itself. It addresses issues to do with history and fiction which I have been wrestling with for a good while now and about which I feel compelled to write. Apologies if it doesn’t appeal! The blog will continue shortly with the development of Norah’s relationship with Danny and the increasingly unsalubrious letters from Jim.
My last blog post was based on a single entry in Norah’s diary for 19th September 1941: Went to Derby & bought blue dress material & fed swans in river gardens. I’m in love with him & I don’t care a scrap. All we can know about that day in Norah’s life are these 25 words. However, I found myself imagining Norah making that trip, leaving the house and skipping down to the bus station, travelling into Derby on a Barton’s bus, gliding into Midland Drapery to buy her dress material, walking from there to the River Gardens to eat her lunch and feed the swans, and all the time thinking about Danny, with whom she had just fallen in love.
The issue of how far we use our imaginations in writing history is very topical in the history blog world at the moment. Helen Rogers and Matt Houlbrooke have both written recently about their own use of styles of writing more commonly associated with fiction than academic history. So I want to explore here not only why I feel compelled to ‘fictionalise’ at times, but also to explore what ‘to fictionalise’ really means?
I was once in a lift with a poet who’d read a part of my manuscript. He had written me some feedback but this was the only occasion I had a conversation with him.
You need to use more of the techniques of the novelist, he said.
I started to answer back – to argue with him – but what about history? – the sources? – the truth? The lift came to a halt and the doors shuddered open. As he made his exit, he looked back at me, calling over his shoulder,
and I don’t mean making it up!
That was the challenge I’d been waiting for. The assertion that there are writers out there who think that novelists aren’t making it up!
Soon after, I talked to a novelist. She’s written some fabulous stuff, novels I really love. And she said this: although the story is made up, it is imagined from true events, real feelings. Sometimes it is even a distillation of many such events. As such, it contains a kernel of truth. This novelist believes that fiction allows her to get closer to a truth than do the facts of history. This is different from using fiction to develop a story when the sources run out. Fiction can enable us to get to an essence of something that is frequently not expressed in the extant source materials. But the thing that lies between the sources and the final piece of writing is the act of imagining. It seems to me that this is the crucial component and that for writers of history, our relationship with and immersion in the sources is key.
Officially speaking, imagination doesn’t sit easily with academic historians. We analyse. We are less interested in narrative and images. As Helen Rogers has written,
in so much scholarly history, the sources are made not to tell a story but to make an argument, or if there is a story, it must be kept in its place, subordinated to analysis. As writers, it’s the stories and sources we cling to; they are the bits we hate to lose when forced to cut-down a paper. When we allow them to stay, they are sandwiched between topic sentences announcing their purpose and stating what they mean. Rarely are they allowed to lead, except perhaps in an epigram or opening vignette before the voice of the historian kicks in. And as readers, academics are even less tolerant of stories. Our eyes skate over quotation and illustration to zoom in on the knock out ‘punch lines’ on method or argument. It’s the skeleton we look for, not the flesh and meat.
I maybe shouldn’t confess that most journal articles I have published have come back in the early stages with ‘too much narrative’ in comment boxes (or scrawled in pen) next to two or more paragraphs. Like many academics I feel extremely frustrated at times with the way we write and wonder whether there are other ways of being rigorous, whether stories themselves can be suggestive of an interpretation. And while we acknowledge that we interpret sources and that those interpretations are shaped by current theories and interests, some of which are very personal, we hold back from making too explicit use of the imagination. Indeed, we could – and probably should – argue that interpretation is a product of the imagination in itself.
For other history-lovers, it is the story that matters. Stories are subtle, suggestive. They engage the reader, requiring them to imagine, to do the work of interpretation. The truth is important too, of course, and as I discovered when discussing my book with members of a book club recently, readers need to feel they can trust that they are being told the truth as you know it. They want to know that they can rely on you, that you are not tricking them. I understand this feeling very well. I was elated when I reached the end of Laurent Binet’s brilliant HHhH, in which the author plays with concepts of history and fiction while telling a very good story. Then I had a sudden and overwhelming sense of dread. What if Binet was not the narrator; that the narrator had been made up? I scoured the internet for interviews with the author until I found the one where he stated quite clearly that the narrator was himself. What a relief. I could love the book again.
It has taken me a long time to feel comfortable with the idea that fiction can convey truth as well as history. When I first received my great aunt’s diaries, when I knew nothing more than that I didn’t want to gut them for academic articles and that I wanted to write a book that she would recognise as her story, I decided to take a module in life-writing to help me work out what this might mean. This was my first venture into creative writing. The tutor, Conor O’Callaghan, a poet and memoirist (not the poet in the lift!), pushed me to experiment with new ways of writing: imagining dialogue, descriptive passages, making the research process an explicit part of the story, indeed, writing myself and my relationship with Norah into the book. For me, being a historian supervised by a poet has been interesting in itself. For a short while, I wondered if it would work. When Conor urged me to ‘get rid of that sentence, you sound like a historian!’ I would protest rather meekly, ‘but I am a historian…’ What this did, was tap into my long-standing anxieties about the way academics write, and prompt me to think more critically about the different ways we come to ‘know’ history. I’ve written elsewhere (here and here) about how other writers, poets in particular, focus on the sensory experience. The same is true of much history beyond academia, where the emphasis is on the story and on showing rather than solely on analysis and telling.
So in the chapter that formed my last post, it felt absolutely imperative to me to make explicit the fact that I do imagine the situations that my historical characters find themselves in. I used to do this far less. When I was writing about missionaries in West Africa and the South Seas, for example, I stuck with the analysis, hardly let myself imagine what it would feel like for the Sheffield Quaker Hannah Kilham to arrive in Sierra Leone, or for a Muslim Gambian dignitary to coolly receive her and tell her she could set up a mission school if she wished but his children didn’t need a Christian education. Or for George Vason of Nottingham, on one of the earliest missions to the South Seas, to make the decision to abandon the mission and live as a Tongan chief. I think my writing might have been better for it. More recently, writing abut Fredrika Bremer’s travels in North America in 1849-1851, or Mary Howitt’s C19th faith journey from Quaker childhood to Roman Catholic old age, via Unitarianism and Spritiualism, I found myself drawn into the stories, even writing in the present tense. But even here, paragraphs which were more intuitive and more story-led had to be left out of the final academic articles.
Of course I don’t know that Norah took the bus into Derby on 19th September 1941. She might have broken with her usual habit and walked down to the railway station and jumped on the train. Maybe she had already spied a piece of fabric on a stall in the Market Hall and did not venture into Midland Drapery at all. Then there is the spam cob and the unresolved issue of the chocolate éclair (Norah had lots of chocolate during WW2, but no-one can tell me about the availability of éclairs!) But I wanted to convey Norah’s lightness, her giddiness, her sense of excitement, all of which come through in that diary entry. I needed to imagine her switching her affections from Jim to Danny, falling in love properly for the first time.
In this sense then, the truth is in the emotion. Though the éclair continues to bug me, the actual facts of Norah’s day – bus or train, spam or potted meat? – while needing to be plausible, became less important. Reading historical scholarship in order to gain an understanding of the ’emotional communities’ in which Norah would find herself in 1941 was essential (1). But I also had a song in my head, Jolie Holland’s ‘Crush in the Ghetto’, the context of which bears no relation to wartime Derby at all, but the dreaminess and sentiment seem entirely appropriate to an evocation of that slightly disembodied feeling when you find yourself falling in love.
I am floating with the birds, I’m talking to the wind, look what you’ve done to me,
I’m still dressed up from the night before, silken hose and an old Parisian coat,
And I feel like a queen at the bus stop on the street, look what you’ve done to me.
It’s a beautiful morning in the ghetto, finer than the day before…
But the question remains: does this in any way enhance our understanding of history? For me, it does. The appeal to the senses and the emphasis on seeing the world through another’s eyes, allows me to see other things in the sources and to appreciate them from new perspectives.
(1) My forthcoming article, ‘”Went into raptures”: reading emotion in the ordinary wartime diary, 1941-1946’, will be published in a special edition (on women, emotion, love and melancholy) of Women’s History Review in 2015. For ’emotional communities’, see Barbara H Rosenwein, ‘Worrying About Emotions in History’, American Historical Review, 107: 3 (2002), 821-845, p. 842; and Barbara H. Rosenwein quoted in Jan Plamper, ‘The history of emotions: An interview with William Reddy, Barbara Rosenwein and Peter Stearns’, History and Theory, 49, 237-265, p. 253.
The love letters of Fred & Janie - my great great grandparents courting in Sheffield in the 1870's
Early Career Researcher and Teacher (SOAS)
Stepping out of the strait jacket of academia...
of a social historian
A blog for creative histories and the #storypast virtual reading group
Stories from my Family Tree
Historian and geographer, writer and researcher
Delving into History...
Interdisciplinary, international & in the real world
educating for equity and justice
notes from the margins of the past
Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it
Adventures in the world of history
prole (colloquial, freq. derogatory) = proletarian
Books, exhibitions, films, music, places - anything that inspires. Here so I don't forget.
Historian, Victorianist & Lecturer
stories from a nineteenth-century prison
Talking through my research
The special collection of popular fiction at Sheffield Hallam University
"To honour the memory of the anonymous" - Walter Benjamin
My Great Aunt Norah's wartime diaries, 1938-1948
the history of 'the unruly sort of clowns' and other early modern peculiarities
A blog from the Working Class Movement Library in Salford
My Great Aunt Norah's wartime diaries, 1938-1948
A Diary of Love, Literature, and Growing Up in Wartime America